Musings & Worries

Today I learned something about myself, about my personality, about my interactions with people, and about my nature.

A friend of mine was not himself today; something was off. He seemed rather tired and upset; he was not his usual cheery, assuring self. I realized this as soon as I saw him.

My first reaction was to worry. My first impulse was to offer him words of comfort. I wanted to give him a hug and wish his troubles away.

But the only thing of those I managed to do was worry. And quite excessively.

This got me thinking.

What caused such a reaction? Was it strange for people to have a bad day? Not really. Was it out of the ordinary for them to be stressed? Not likely. Didn't people get tired? Of course they did. So what induced the panic-stricken response?

A disturbance in my turf.

That's what it boiled down to.

Whenever there is restlessness in a kingdom, the ruler worries. The very same way, I learned how protective my nature was today.

Once I make someone my own, worrying about them or caring about them isn't an obligation any more, it becomes ingrained in my nature.

This change was surprisingly drastic, but entirely understandable, coming from someone with my personality. I always knew I was fiercely loyal to those close to me, but today, I found out just how much, courtesy of aforementioned friend.

Here's sending positive thoughts, warm hugs, and fluffy monkeys his way in hopes that tomorrow is better for him than today was.

Until next time, friends.

Hasta la-buh bye!

Feeling Claustrophobic about Life lately...

If I was to describe Time in 3 words, what would they be?

Relentless.
Determined.

Indifferent.

The coming back to this blog every two years and disappearing for another two has to stop. I miss having a routine. I miss having an agenda. 

However, I must acknowledge the irony. I detest the uncertainty, but I love the spontaneity that life has to offer me.

Let's just say, it's been a confusing time.

However, in the time that I have been away from this safe haven (aka blogaroo) of mine, much has happened.

I've travelled to 8 different countries in the last year.

I graduated from University.

I got slightly closer to my goal of losing weight, and I am still working on that. Apart from a few distractions, its still happening!

I had a fair few heartbreaks, hardships, challenges. There were moments where I thought I might not make it.

But here I am. In one piece. Still holding it together.

So this little post is just putting it out there that I am still alive and kicking.

After a lot of thinking, I've come up with some pretty cool ideas for some posts, and I promise they are coming.

With regards to that Diet, I did follow it through to the end, but it was a pretty inefficient, temporary plan. The results came, but they did not last. I will also touch on that journey soon, but for now, I really want to give my inner writer a chance to shine.

For anyone who may be out there reading this, going through a tough time, thinking you are all alone.. just remember you really are NOT alone.

If you look around hard enough, you will always find someone waiting for you. Someone to catch you before you fall. Someone to pick you up if you do fall. Someone to comfort you in your times of stress.

If you keep your eyes closed, your head down, your hopes buried, these angels that surround you will be hard to find.

This is why they say, keep your chin up!

If no one else, I'm here for you. Write to me, and I will listen.

Always remember your worth, you are priceless.

I have a lot to say, but I also have a lot to do. So until the next time, which will be very soon...

Hasta la-buh bye!